Stupid Infatuation

The title doesn't serve as a mockery. Nor does show any sign of going against infatuations. Rather, it's what I'm feeling at this very moment. There has been articles stating the differences between love, infatuation and lust, but I'm not gonna get there. The chief point, however, is to pinpoint the nature of a teenager which is to love and be loved. Yup. This is a teenager speaking. Teenager to teenager time.

I'll be the world's worst liar if I were to deny the fact that I've had crushes. I do, and my first goes to a senior back in standard 5. I had exactly no idea why I liked him, but that feeling died off by the following year, probably because I don't see him any more. My second is also a senior when I was first enrolled in high school, and fortunately enough, he moved away too. My next line of crushes are all of the same age.

So what are infatuations really? According to dictionary.com, infatuation means the state of being infatuated, which then means this:

1. to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love.

I'm the one who stays inert, not willing to take on any further actions to whatever I'm feeling. Confessions from the opposite gender makes no difference either. I get hurt if I see that certain someone talks to another girl or tells jokes to some other girls but I won't allow the pain to stab me all over. I'm the jealous type (the extreme one), which is another reason I'd like my feelings to stay hidden.

From a wider perspective, it's never wrong to like someone, to have a crush or be crushed (a.k.a have a secret admirer). It's how you handle it that matters. If you let yourself waste pieces and pieces of tissue, neglect the commandment of Allah, sit and do nothing all day long, then you need to look at yourself in the mirror. We're still young, my fellow teenage friends. So many things to explore, so much knowledge to gain. Teenage years only come once, and you shall never get it back. Ask any grown up you see today, and I guarantee that their teenage life is the best thing that's ever happened to them. Don't let yourself be astray by the whispers of iblis, for that is what they have promised to Allah. Everyone is having the same period of being a teenager, and it's the way you make use of it makes you different from the others. Think, if insyaAllah you were to have children in the future, what cool stories would you tell them? Of the time you were a teen. Of the time you won a football match. Of the time you watched the latest movies with your friends. Of the time you were elected as the president of the Student Council. Of the time you had fun. Yes, fun  is the word.

Stop wasting your precious self, dear teenagers, for your youth will not last forever (not unless you're this guy).

Mr. Cullen 

Get out there and have the time of your lives. Regrets in the future will do you no good. Again, I would like to emphasize the gist: it's never wrong to like someone, it's how you handle it that matters. Get a firm grip on your steering wheel, for you are the driver of your own vehicle on the rocky road of life. Never let those feelings overpower you. It's not that others can do it but you can't. It's that they chose to do it. It's their choice, and yours too.

As for me, I do admit that I currently have a crush, even though I tried to deny it to myself ever since people noticed the difference in the way that I acted in his presence. I can no longer hide it though, for it's better to be honest with yourself. Put your trust in Allah, as He holds the strings to your future. He will give you guidance if you go seek for it. Never underestimate the power of doa, says a friend of mine. My last words, value the time you have today. Second chances are not always assured.

My thoughts exactly