Some Random Poem

If I could just embrace you ever so tightly

So you know that everything's okay

That the end is far from where you're standing

That the truth is, the end is never there

But I couldn't

Because you would just push me away

Gently so I won't get hurt

And tell me you're fine

When you're not

I know a lie when I see one

In reality,

The damage you've done is through your deception

How can I say this to you

When you won't even listen

Ears opaque of the incoming voices around you

To assure you

To brighten you up

But you just won't listen

It's tough, undeniably

But still I understand not

The predicament in which you are in

I can only blame myself

For I am not good a company

Many times I have left you

Many times, I wasn't there

O great warrior

Hold your weapon in pride

You might find yourself alone

And not a single human to help you

To bring you up when you're down

But how can they,

When you have shielded yourself

From their very protection?

My apologies, my dear friend

It was never your fault

I should've acted when I had the chance

But I let it go

I let you slip from my fingers

Like a child letting go of her kite

So there you flew

Out into the open sky

Never to return

Never to come back

Nuraini, 2013

There you go. Randomness. If you could, find the theme, moral values, settings etc. haha okay goodnight :)

Math Quote

I was getting my brain abused by all these college application essays that I decided to get some help from someone. There happens to be a college that asks me to indicate my "intellectual interests" and what it is about them that makes them so special. So I decided to ask my mum this: How do you define Mathematics?

She took a deep breath and replied:

"Mathematics is all about logic and never magic. Everything that you come up with has reason behind it. Although mathematics seem solely about numbers and what not, those "numbers" don't just appear out of nowhere. The units even. You can't simply poof up RM20 from 20."     -Mum

Deep. Those weren't her words exactly though, but close enough. And I nodded in agreement. Well, she is my Math guru. Logic. Mathematics is about logic. I began tap-tap-tapping on the keyboard again. I sighed.

Through these college essays (which are mostly due by early next year), I actually learnt to dig deep into myself. These essays aren't your typical English language exams. They're more of trying to get you to know yourself, and really I was able to reflect on numerous things in my past.

Think of it this way. Literature. In English class,

Night Walking

She started to count. 82, 81, 80... She didn't know how long it has been, or how much longer it's going to take. 59, 58, 57... She wanted to calm herself down, tell herself that it's not going to be long. She was number 83 by the way, the 27th person to be left solo. Looking at the watch on her wrist might cause her more anxiety, so she decided that it was best for her to not know what time it was. There she sat, alone like everybody else.

Once Upon A Time

He looked at her stoically. The aura of indifference seemed like a ray of light shining from his emotionless face. Typical, she thought. She remembered a few months back, when they had just met. She never paid much attention to him in class. Didn't know who he was, wasn't aware that he even existed. Probably the crowded classroom was to blame, or maybe the relatively large distance that separated them both.