Wahai Diri

The saddest part is when the people around you try to console you and tell you that things are going to be better.

The most painful part is knowing that the people around you are trying their hardest to understand you despite the fact that they're not even experiencing it first-hand.

The worst part is knowing that people care.

Well, things don't always go the way want them to. To see the rainbow you have to put up with the rain, huh? Sometimes you win and sometimes you don't. That's life. And along the way you learn, and in the end, you'll find out that you really did win, only in a totally different way.

Life is a bed of roses with thorns to hurt you and little bugs to make you feel uncomfortable. I'm currently having myself locked up in my room by the way, because I've decided that human interaction would make me feel ten times worse. Need a time out actually. And in this moments of solace, I've found that...

It's not so bad though, to fail

Because at least you get to taste failure

At least you realise that you're not that little miss perfect you always thought you were (reality check, people)

At least you don't get lost in your own castle-in-the-air

At least you wouldn't forget how it feels when you first started off

At least later, when you reach success, you won't be the bitch that you've always hated during your failure

At least you know that you have someone to turn up to

At least you know that Allah loves you

Dude, last time I remembered, you told me you wanted "what's best for you", isn't that right? So just think of this as some kind of path that'll lead you to that thing that's best for you eventually. Doesn't sound so bad now does it?

Gah!. Why does it feel so hard to accept your own advice. Jari-jemari saja yang rancak menari mengikut rentak yang diisyaratkan oleh otak. Hati? Susah pula nak mengikut irama yang dimainkan oleh gabungan duet antara fikiran dan anggota badan. Biasalah, I'm only human mah. Terkadang rasa aku nie cakap tak serupa bikin ja. Ayat bukan main lagi mengajak itu dan ini, tapi untuk diri aku menerima dan mengaplikasikannya, agak sukar.

Geleng kepala.

Tapi itulah dia, walau pahit manapun, segala yang mendatang itu tetap perlu ditelan. Life goes on. Tell me, makanan apa yang rasanya sweet ja memanjang? Candies tu lain cerita la. I mean, have you ever had a meal that's sweet all the way? How would it taste like? Bosan, right? Same goes with this four-letter-word that I've been talking about. Life is full of bitter sweet sour salty spicy moments. Cuma kita ni saja yang perlu bijak mencari the bright side of everything. Setiap yang berlaku itu... ada hikmah kan?

Live well or live hell. You choose

-Hlovate, Rooftop Rant